My name is LILYAN and I am from CUTTACK, ODISHA.
My mother was a TPM believer and my father was a non-TPM person, so from the very beginning, I had to attend not only TPM church but various other Pentecostal and Baptist churches as well. My Sunday schooling was in TPM as well as in a Baptist church. Even though I was going to so many churches during my childhood days, I had a very false belief that TPM is the only true and the best church.
Whenever my mother’s brother met me, he always compared TPM with other churches and glorified TPM. He was saying, “There are so many churches exactly as there are so many gods. As Christ is the only true GOD, likewise The Pentecostal Mission is the only true church. TPM workers have got a high and glorious calling, God has revealed them deeper heavenly things. They are not married as other church pastors. They have left their parents and everything. They are wearing white and they have no love for ornaments. They are suffering for God, they are leading a holy life and their consecration will place them on the topmost place in heaven i.e., Zion. God has appointed them to prepare us as the bride of Christ. They are the only real servants of God and others those who are doing God’s work are not real since they are not called according to the bible and they have not consecrated anything. He was using bible verses while explaining all these things, so I was believing him. Whenever I read non-TPM books, he would criticize the book and the author.
My father also started to attend TPM meetings and got baptized there but within a very few years, he left TPM because TPM did not allow him to attend other churches or mix with other church people. They tried to control him, but he escaped and said that TPM believers fear their pastors more than God, they run after their pastors and for them, their pastor is their God. Though there were lots of disturbances between my parents because of TPM, still my mother went to TPM and she took me with her. TPM would say that first is GOD MEANS TPM, THEN COMES OTHER THINGS LIKE FAMILY.
But one day my father got irritated and asked my mother not to go to TPM anymore and we had to stop for few years and TPM sisters met my mother outside because they feared to enter our house. Meanwhile, I had born-again experience and got baptized in a Pentecostal church. I was happy with God, though not with any church. And there was a lot of Joy in my heart because of Jesus but very soon my life became a nightmare.
The Fanatic Uncle
Then my uncle met me and said, “You should be under the guidance of TPM servants of GOD, YOU need apostolic fellowship that only TPM can offer. My uncle is a total TPM Fanatic. He is married but has no relationship with his wife because he is aiming to go to Zion and wants to live like brother and sister because the coming of the Lord is near. He said to me “You need to grow and be perfect like Jesus. You need TPM servants of God who will help you to get ready for the rapture of the church. Otherwise, you will be left behind or after your death, you will dwell on New Earth, you cannot come to New Jerusalem, you cannot be the bride of Christ. etc etc.” When I heard all these things, I decided to obey my uncle and come to TPM and grow in my spiritual life. So, I and my mother rejoined TPM but this time my father did not say anything. I also started to read TPM books and thought that it is a deeper revelation.
Harassment in the name of the Holy Spirit
As soon as I entered TPM for the second time, believers and workers asked me whether I have received Holy Spirit with the evidence of speaking in unknown tongues or not. When I told them ‘NO’, they told me, “you cannot enter heaven, you cannot be caught up at Christ’s Coming” When I heard this I got scared Of God and I felt inferior to TPM believers and workers and I thought God will like me and love me only if I speak in tongues.. So I started to pray and ask GOD TO fill me with the Holy Spirit with the evidence of speaking in unknown tongues. So many tarrying meetings were held for me to receive but nothing happened. Then workers, as well as believers, started to blame me. They compared me with other youths and told me… see how spiritual they are but you are sitting just behind the worker sisters but you are not getting filled with the spirit. See how they are jumping and rejoicing in spirit but you are sitting like a statue. I was feeling so scared that in college also I was sitting alone and asking GOD to fill me with the Holy Spirit. When my friends and lecturers were asking me, what happened. I was telling them that if I don’t speak in tongues then my church people will laugh at me and they will scold me. wherever I went and whatever I did this thought never left me. Someone told me to fast… I fasted a lot and looked skinny, but nothing happened. I was having sleepless nights because I was afraid of TPM people and GOD because I thought he loves them but not me. So many years passed by but nothing happened… and during TPM meetings, especially during tarrying meetings I was always crying and praying. “God, if you love me then enable me to speak in tongues otherwise deliver me from these TPM people. because I am feeling scared’’
The Real Tongues, Mine or theirs?
Nothing happened but I was asked to teach Sunday school students. I told the center pastor that I don’t speak in tongues how can I be a Sunday School teacher. He said, “If you be a Sunday school teacher then you will receive Holy Spirit”. I was the only teacher who was not speaking in tongues so other teachers were telling me, “You should receive Holy Spirit otherwise what will you teach students. you need Anointing”. So I went and told the pastor that I cannot teach without anointing but he forced me to teach Sunday school students, to translate Sunday school notes, and during Sunday school exams I was asked to prepare questions and translate it. Why ? if they can insult me and scold me for not speaking in tongues then why they needed me to help them with the local language. Why they didn’t ask others those who could speak in tongues to help them? Isn’t the gift of unknown tongues supposed to be used to converse with the Local People? Why is it that I am the one that has to do the conversation/translation and not they who supposedly has the gift of tongues (Acts 2:7:8)? With all their shouting and jumping, why do they have to use my services? Was not their Holy Spirit helping them?
Sisters would say so many things because I never spoke in tongues but at the same time, they would ask me to do and buy so many things. Once a worker sister, sis. JYOTHI told me to copy the writings of a diary to another diary. After copying it fully when I gave her, she told me to type everything. Though it took so much of my time, I still had to type without complaining because my uncle told me that they are servants of God and I will have to obey them unquestioningly. Then after typing when I gave it to her, she gave me another diary to type. Then another sister REGINA also made me do the same thing. They could have photocopied but they didn’t. There was a pastor who used scold me but he would ask me to write his sermons. Why didn’t he ask someone who could speak in tongues to write his sermons? Should not their gift of unknown tongues help them?
They were comparing me with those youths, but they never asked them to work. Once Pastor ALWIN asked me to translate a book. After finishing it when I returned the book, he gave me another book. then he told me to finish it within a month. I asked him to give me more time because it was very difficult for me to translate. I also told him, “I am not able to read bible or pray for anyone so I need some more time” He looked at a sister and told her, “ she is a proud girl” maybe he told this not seriously but for fun but I left that place and cried a lot because they don’t know how I was doing their works.. in the morning before going to college, in college during class hours and after coming back from college till late in the night. Sometimes I did not take bath and lunch because I had to complete it. These People made me their Slave. I was at their beck and call.
Once all Sunday school students and teachers were having lunch. Center pastor THAMBI DURAI was sitting on his chair. He called me and made me kneel before him and asked me whether I received Holy Spirit and whether I spoke in tongues during the service or not. I replied ‘no’. then he said, “What is happening to you? This Thursday is a holiday. We will keep tarring meeting that day and you will have to receive Holy Spirit”. But that Thursday I had to go and attend my cousin’s engagement in another place, so I told him that I cannot come to Faith Home that day. He got angry and said, “So your cousin’s engagement is more important than the Holy Spirit. Go from here.” I was still kneeling and looking at his face. He again said rudely, “ GO”. I tried to control my tears and had my lunch that day but his words kept ringing in my ears throughout my cousin’s engagement.
I was wondering why he could not place his hands on me and have me receive the Holy Spirit like the Apostles of Jesus. Even TPM Ministers used to boast that they are apostles. But why they were only having a form of Godliness without any power?
Then Peter and John placed their hands on them, and they received the Holy Spirit. Acts 8:17
Daughter of Satan
A few years back, I attended every meeting in Faith Home from January to November, but I could not attend meetings that were held in December because I was studying for my exams. One Sunday, after the service got over, Sister ANILA came and asked me the reason why I was not attending December meetings. When I told her the reason, she dragged me with her strong hands and took me where all Sunday school teachers and students were sitting and then she scolded me before them, “Who is important?? God or your studies?? Will your studies take you to Zion??” Then while I was hiding my face and crying, a worker brother came and told her, “Don’t scold her before everyone. take her inside”
Once I wore an embroidered dress. One sister named GLORY took me to a room and said, “CHHIII…Jesus will not love you if you will wear such dresses. Wear simple dresses.” I really don’t understand what’s wrong in embroidery. Whenever I wore a black or dark colored dress(not on meeting days), sisters were getting irritated and were asking me to wear a light colored dress. Once one sister named NANCY called me Shaitan Ki bachhi (daughter of Satan) in front of all other sisters because I was wearing a black salwar and they looked at me and made faces and for some days I felt like I was really Shaitan ki bachhi and that God hates me. So I started to wear white whenever I came to Faith Home even in non-meeting days. TPM ministers in the USA and Europe are wearing black so should I call them SHAITAN KE BACHE???
Illegal Actions of the Centre Mother Anbu
During demonetization, each worker gave their money to the center pastor so that they can get new notes. But there is a sister named as Anbu who did not give money that she had, to the pastor. Instead called me to her room, closed the door and gave me a lot of money. She also told me not to say this to anybody. But at that time I had no other way but to obey them so I took that money and changed it. What I was thinking was that, why didn’t the sister give money to the pastor and why she asked me to close the door so that no one will know? And why should an old lady keep so much money? Actually, I cannot judge her, but God knows better why she closed the door. Surely if it has to be hidden, it means it has to be private money. I also know that she did this same thing with many other believers. Aren’t these people deceiving others saying that they left all?
19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. Matt 6:19-20
Perverted Divine Healing of TPM
In 2017, I was coughing badly but I was not taking medicines. Then after three months, I could not even stand straight because my rib bones were paining very badly so my father took me to a hospital and the doctor said that I was having bronchitis. That Sunday when I went to Faith Home, my uncle said before another believer, “Christian Girl. having bronchitis?” he meant that it was because of my sins. I was wondering when will he see inside the faith homes to see sicknesses and explain the cause of that.
Once a believer from Kolkata named SIBI called me to come near him. He doesn’t know me but he told me, “When I will come here for the next time I don’t want to see you wearing specs. Trust Jesus”. He also asked me whether I was using Facebook and WhatsApp and told me not to use. I still don’t understand why he asked me not to use when his own wife and her brothers use Facebook and WhatsApp. When will TPM get rid of the doctrine of imposing their will upon others?
So you must be careful to do everything they tell you. But do not do what they do, for they do not practice what they preach. Matt 23:3
The Prophetess’ Manipulation
There was one TPM girl named Samarpita who was prophesying in TPM. She always had readymade prophecies. Sometimes sisters asked me to see how smart she is, how strong she is in her spiritual life. I only thought to myself. had I been like her then everyone would have liked me too, but I was not smart, I was not strong too. One day that girl called me and asked me to agree to marry her brother. I told her, “NO”. She forced me to agree. She also said that God showed her in a vision. I still did not agree. Then she told me, “You rejected my brother, you rejected my prayerful family. You will go and fall into a place where there will be trash. I am a prophetess and if you will go and tell this to anyone, you will be cursed. Listen properly. I am a prophetess and if you disobey me then you will be cursed”. Then I remembered that how sisters were comparing me with this wicked prophetess.
We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise. 2 Cor 10: 12.
Whose servants are TPM Ministers?
When I was not able to attend meetings because I had to be with my grandmother who was bedridden, one staunch believer of TPM asked me the reason why I was not attending meetings. I told her the reason. Then she said, “Your Grandmother is a burden for you. You can only be free after her death”. Now I really don’t have any words to describe TPM believers.
Once before workers’ meeting, I was helping some sisters in putting up curtains. One sister told me to come and stay in Faith Home. I told her that I cannot leave my grandmother and come here. She is bedridden and I have to stay with her. That stupid sister advised me to leave my grandmother in GOD’s care. She also said that you come and stay in Faith Home, angels will take care of her. I told her that in Bible it is written, “ but those who don’t care for their relatives, especially those in their own household, have denied the true faith. Such people are worse than unbelievers” then she said. no need to teach us from the bible. She did not agree but she said me again to leave my grandmother all alone and come to the Faith Home because the Faith Home is more important than anything else. I was really thinking at that time whether these people are really GOD’S SERVANTS OR SATAN’S SERVANTS.
I have also seen sisters fighting with each other so shamelessly and they don’t even apologize. They try to compete with one another. And they do various sins but before everyone, they appear to be very holy because they wear white. Once PAS. CHRISTOPHER told me not to make male friends and I never talked with boys, but Sister MINI was always taking my phone and talking with Bro. BIJOY and SIS. JYOTHI was talking with BRO. KINGSLEY. What I really don’t understand is that they pretend to be spiritual before their believers, but they do such things. I have also heard them calling Pastor as “BUDHA, DIMAAG CHAT RAHA HAIN”. And these are the people who are preparing their believers for Rapture. HYPOCRITES!!! And there are some innocent workers those who are trapped in TPM.
Training to Lie
There was a sister Regina who was using my phone to talk with TPM as well as non-TPM people. She was telling them about God and praying for them. But she never taught those people to pray for themselves. Whenever I would be at home or somewhere else, those people will call me and order me to give my phone to that sister. And when I would tell them that now I am busy I will go later, they would complain her about me and she would scold me. One day she also told me, “Whenever pastor will ask you the reason for coming to faith home.. don’t tell my name.. tell that accountant has called you“. So she was teaching me to tell lies and from that day I started to avoid her.
The Manipulation Continues
TPM workers and some believers wanted me to join the ministry. One brother told me that if I will agree to join the ministry then only God will give me the Holy Spirit. And they were waiting when I will speak in tongues so that they can pull me to TPM ministry. Some sisters were telling me stories like what will happen if I will not join the ministry.
Moreover, I really felt irritated during testimony times because the believers and workers gave TPM centric testimonies, during conventions the messages are TPM centered and the songs are TPM centered which a non-TPM person cannot understand. I brought three ladies to Faith Home meetings. They felt bored and they could not understand anything. If I will write whatever I have experienced in TPM then it will not finish.
We rejoined TPM because we thought we will grow in our spiritual life instead it was destroying our lives and TPM was really a waste of time, a very bad experience and a nightmare for me. There was no happiness left in me.
I was totally confused about TPM’s teachings because I was having lots of doubts and whenever I asked them any question, they gave answers which did not make any sense. Then I thought I should not ask them any more questions, but I was still blindly believing what my uncle said. I started to read non-TPM books and I became more confused about the doctrines of TPM.
Encounter with the Truth
Then in 2017, I was praying to God to reveal me the truth. Are TPM doctrines from God or not? I had so many questions in my mind and I had faith that God will surely answer all my questions. One day in January 2018, God led me to this website and started to answer all my questions. I felt sad when I got to know that TPM is a cult, but I felt very happy after so many years because finally, I can live without fearing these TPM workers and believers. Few Sundays I went to Faith Home and asked them questions about TPM doctrines, but they could not answer. I went to some believers’ house to ask them about TPM doctrines. they got upset because they had no answers.
I was worried as to how will I leave TPM. What will everyone say? especially my non-TPM family members. now what will happen? I thought I will leave Sunday school ministry, I will not take part in anything, but I will only go on Sundays because I feared what everyone will think about me. But in April 2018, one article got published here on this website. After reading two paragraphs of that article, I decided to leave TPM, but I did not force my mother to leave.
Those two paragraphs are. “Dear TPM believers, you shake your heads in disappointment when you see idols of Mary being paraded on the streets on St Mary’s feast and when you see Mary being elevated to a near god-like figure. Then why don’t you see the problem with TPM who have time and time again written songs that exalt them to God’s level?
They haven’t left any qualities unique to God. They receive “character perfection”, they are “sinless”, they are the “high priest”, they “bear your sins”, they are “equal to Jesus in love” and they take the place of the Holy Spirit in Eternity. When will you put your foot down and say “enough is enough” and shake the dust off of your sandals and walk out?” (Heresies in TPM – Part 8 – The Unbelievable Idol Worship)
When I went to TPM for the last time, to return Sunday school syllabus, that was the last Sunday service for me. The assistant center pastor gave a sermon about an envious person who is jealous of them because they will stand on Mount Zion and that person cannot stand. He also said, “that person is envious of our white dress, of our consecration., that person could not get a call from God so he or she is becoming envious’ ’he also teasingly laughed and said.. “we are not like other church pastors, they are married, we are unmarried”. Then he said about a liar who is going to TPM believers’ house and telling lies about TPM. Then finally he said, “That person is Lustful that’s why standing against the Church of God”. Then he said, REPENT OF YOUR SINS AND RETURN BACK”. He explained from the bible that if that person will not repent, he or she will go to hell.
Who cares about their threatening anymore? I returned the Sunday school syllabus, and everyone looked at me as if I was an alien and I looked at everyone for the last time and left TPM. For so many years I was having absolutely no freedom and I was fearing them because I thought they are second to God. But I could know their real nature when I mixed with them. They don’t have any love, they are hypocrites, pretending to be holy outwardly but having all kinds of sins and it is all because of their false doctrines. Not only TPM but I should not allow any church to come in between me and God. I was a fool because I believed what my uncle said but God showed mercy and delivered me and my mother from the clutches of TPM. The only thing I can do for TPM is to pray for them and continue to give them articles no matter what they think and say.